Silver Lining

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A headache
Pounding in space
Navigating a lost future
Walked upon the barbed wire fence
In hopes of the silver lining
Lifted each foot carefully deviating the other from the next potential fall
How did we get here
Rabid bits of time
Paranoia is alive and well
Smoke curdles in the wind
Softly running away in the skies
Shoes worn from the aimless wander
Erratic heart, hopeless devotion
How did I get here
In the tire and the illuminating glow of the night
Fine I will fall, but only for tonight

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In the Light of Moon Lake

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Oh depression you caught up,
Cloaked in your own special way snug in the fast paced days of July,
The rain distorted my broken thoughts,
Allured by the dark sky and the surrounding trees by Moon Lake and all its beauty
My sleeping partner cannot breach my sad state of mind
Depression,  you silently caught up like an oncoming cold in the past couple weeks
Epiphanies came rolling in like clouds in the lapse of the night
Suppressed memories exhumed themselves in the quiet of the hollow tent
Intrusive emotions ravaged soft moments,
Inhibiting the truest of feelings and words that could have been shared
Instead anger took over
And words came out stuttered, stifled, or sometimes nothing could be said at all
Premonition has lingered
And now to deal with the new responsibilities
Cigarettes roused my lost touch of creativity while slowly smoldering my healthy lungs
When the dawn had come I awoke to feeling in a self-deprecated state,
The day sped by fast in the deep depths of dark thinking
That moon, how it arose too soon
The long hours of self-hatred had ran its course
A reminder that the day was over, and night had come for its shift
And I was to sleep, arise with strength in hopes for a fresh sense of mind
Diving into this pit of nothingness to a place of lost finds

Stillness

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In the days where the waning hour was far from closing
Screen windows shuttered by the blustering wind
The rain raged breaking through the weight of the clouds
Creases in the bed evoked imprints on my skin
Fading maps
Stillness
Little sounds leaked through the walls
Scaling notes, crying children, creaks, ticks, running taps, and all
Objects unmoved
The motion of the suites down below could not breach the frozen room
Far from trepidation in belief that only good can come
Sitting in silence my belly rises and falls
I close my eyes, flip the lamp switch to and its back to sleep
Where I let dreams of love sweep me oblivion
And the ambience to carry me through the night
Sleep tight
It will be all alright
Goodnight

Spring Dreams

img_6925Hard pressed against the bench, my hands clutched around my hips
The kiss of dirt it brushed my lips and my bare skin a target to the spring winds
The minutes flew by
Banal thoughts of the evening that lies ahead
Existential dread
The mallards coupled awaiting for the sun to shine
For their chicks to hatch to flourish and grow at the speed of the garden weeds
My eyes a witness to the budding of the trees
The dancing crows strutted across the pond
Sleek black feathers, beady eyes, and all
Turtle took a slow crawl hauling the weight of the water and the world
And in the western lands you stood at bay and watched the ducks
The spread out city contrasted with the tall timber trees

Okanagan breeze

You plant life shovel in hand,
While lumber and concrete creates the urban city streets
Squirrels run down the power lines, rabbits nosh on the tall green grass
Raccoons they thrash their heads through rotting trash munching on their forbidden snacks
A crisp air shared from east to west we took our breaths in solidarity
And in the prairies, the dull green horizon does not wait for you
The flowers blossom and summer expectations are met by the closing of spring
And here I sit thoughts alive and full of you
Bedazzled like a sunflower turned towards the sun
Rejoiced by Daydreaming till the moon pushes through
Goodnight, good day, to the forest, and to you

Dissonance and Low Tide

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It took hold,
Fast and furious
Vintage cars,
Pink, purple, blue, and red
Ripped down the road
You stood further in proximity
This body a sad case of lost curiosity
And the Caribbean wind whipped away at my fragile state
The voices hollered, drums drummed, the chimes rung through the narrow streets
The dogs they weaselled through the slow paced legs
And the clouded moonlit sky deceived my sudden dread
Voiced my dreams and let them float away
Adrift with the dying hope of reciprocity
I watched my I love you never come back to me
Hands aimlessly grasping for the reluctant grip and those space eyes to take me in
They tend to be incompatible with your mind drifting somewhere in time
Solemn for the journey, in for the trip,
Unrequited confessions lay flat on the Malecon
To be shattered by the waves that crash with the low tide

 

Transcontinental Surfing

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A wide eyed night at the Toronto Airport 

And they came through the door,
Diverging, merging, transcontinental surfing
Some excited, others daunted by what is or was to come
The airport a platform of imploding emotions
Turbulence and high strung expectations
A tear, a tired eye
An anxious child, an exhausted adult
Loving couple, lonely traveller
Temporary faces, quick ending gazes